Over and over again. You have seen it all. The nasty car accidents with broken bodies. Constantly seeing victims of abuse defend the perpetrator. The evil things you had never realized humans were capable of. You see it over and over again. And you know you will continue to see it over and over again.
And it is all weighing on you. Yes, you have seen this before, but now it is not so easy. You find yourself not even wanting to do the work anymore. So you try to escape it. Or you get angry about it, so angry you begin to lose your cool. You try to do anything to keep yourself from thinking about all the evil and darkness you have seen, because you can't tell anyone about it. How can you even begin to explain what it is you are dealing with? When even YOU don't know what it is?
Cumulative trauma is the term used when describing how the repeated exposure to difficult situations (domestics, car accidents, etc.) effects the brain. Our brains are not meant to be exposed to so much darkness. But you as a first responder, you see it day in and day out. Your brain is not built to hold all of that in. We want you to know, this is a normal response to an abnormal amount of evil.
We understand the way your brain is working to protect itself. And we can help you understand it, too. In sessions, you can explore the things you have seen in a safe and non-judgmental space, knowing that we are capable of holding the space and experienced in helping you through it.
You will find yourself able to face it all again. Without worrying about the worst thing happening over and over again. You will understand what you are going through, and know what to do to keep it from holding you back. You will experience freedom again.
Face the giants in your life, slay them and move on. Do not be daunted by the mistakes and failures in your life.
T. D. Jakes